I know that I need to do an update. And I know that whether or not I do an update does not change the reality of what has happen. Its just so hard to see it in black and white. It just makes it all so real.
For everyone who I have been keeping informed of the situation with my dear friend Amanda and her sweet baby girl Cassie, her short journey has come to an end. Her and her amazing husband were put in a situation that absolutely no parent should ever be in. Especially the loving parents that they are who would do anything for their kids. That was the problem, there wasn't anything left for them to do.
I'm writing this with such a broken heart. I know how hurt and sad I am over what has happen to them. I know that I keep just asking myself WHY? But I can't even for a second imagine the pain that they are feeling. I would never even try to compare how I feel to what they are going through.
They decided yesterday that they had to turn off the life support machines. There wasn't any future left for Cassie. She was most likely going to have to live the rest of her life on support. She wasn't ever going to be able to feel their love. She wasn't ever going to be able to live off of a machine. She wouldn't ever really be living again no matter what decision they made. So they did what they knew they had to do.
I don't want to try to speak for them or what they are feeling. All I can say is that they have more respect from me than I can even express. They are great people who I am very glad to know. I'm going to do whatever I can to help them through this. Its the least I can do.
I don't really know what else to say, so I'm just going to leave it at that. Its just so sad and there isn't any explanation for it.
