In honor of Valentine's Day, a post on Love!
When I was younger to say that I was obsessed with love would be putting it mildly. When I started picking out passwords for things it would always be 0214. I remember my dad asking me what those numbers meant once and I said that's Valentine's Day, February 14th, 02-14.... I couldn't even believe that he had to ask!
I was always very concerned about having a boyfriend, liking a boy, does a boy like me. In October I would already be worried about if I would have a date for prom. Because if I didn't have a date for prom, I wouldn't have the wonderful memories and pictures of being in love when I was supposed to be.
When graduation came I was much more concerned about how I would stay together with my boyfriend (we all know in the long run that didn't happen) than I was about going to school or getting a job.
My favorite book is Love Story. Favorite movie Dirty Dancing. I love the whole idea of love.
There is no other feeling in the world like falling in love. The excitement and anticipation of the next time you will see or talk to that person. Are they thinking about you like you are thinking about them? Trying to look your absolute best every time you see them. Never wanting to hang up the phone because you can't focus on anything but them. Sitting at home after a date and recounting every second of the evening. Its truly an amazing feeling!
And one day (if you are lucky) you fall in love for the last time. Instead of coming to a tragic end (which I have also been known to obsess over - if you can't be in love then its good to have a horrific story to explain why you are currently single) this love will keep growing. And with that growth there are new things to get goosebumps about - the proposal, the wedding, the newness of living together. Its like falling in love all over again!
Then things quiet down. You get in to a routine. You are still in love, don't get me wrong, but its a new kind of love. You already fell, all the uncertainty is over and you are comfortable. The trick is to not lose the love in the comfort. You have to keep things interesting, you have to remember those feelings you had when you first fell in love. You have to remember why this is the one you picked to keep forever and always. Sure you might show the love in different ways now but as long as you still show it, that is whats important.
I don't look for big extravagant gestures to show love anymore, now its in the details. Gary cooking and cleaning up after dinner or giving Lyla a bath so I can just sit for a minute. Anytime that we can spend a few minutes together just the two are of us are special nowadays and I cherish them very much!
If you are super lucky you do get to fall in love again - you have a baby. This is a love that I could never even begin to explain. And it grows more and more each day. Its something deep inside that no matter what, its not ever going to go away!
I feel very lucky in love! If I had known 10 years ago that this is where I would be today, I would not have been so worried! But it also wouldn't have been as much fun! ;)
I am very happy right now living in my happily ever after. <3
